I have a theory one like no other, one others may not understand or disagree but its just a theory. Ok. I believe there’s moment in life where you can only be relieved by someone else. Moment where you just can not pick yourself up. My theory also is connect to self-protection; the way people guard there feelings. Many people say you have to worry about yourself but yet we don’t we worry about everyone else. Is it really possible to really worry about oneself, what if you have children and a wife/husband. People may do hurtful things but they also are people who get hurt. Forgiveness in this world is big because your entitled to mistakes and if you can’t forgive who will forgive you. Now, back to my theory problems like heartbreak and death are problems no one will get over alone and if the claim to then they most likely need the biggest hug. It’s hard to be human and maybe only 10% of the world may have it easy but it doesn’t excuse selfness. Helping others will help you think about it like this if you was to watch someone get beat up by ten others would you help? Now if is was you would you liked to be helped? I’m not saying we shouldn’t look out for each other but it maybe even easy if we helped and picked people up. My theory has taken me time to piece together and needs more additional information but it’s solid.
I miss you like crazy, I can’t take it that fact that we are far in distance but our hearts are so close emotionally. Why? I need to know I’m innocent and I have to suffer because someone lied to you. I thought we had something real. The fact that you took back what you said about loving me hurt the most because I may fall quick but I fall hard. What’s the point in catching me if you were only going to let me go? I love you and wish things were different but what can I say I’m in this alone. Wish you the best I know I miss you like hell
I miss everything about you. The faces you make when you mad. How you smile when I’m being silly. The way you struggle to tell me your feelings. The fact that we could talk about anything. The amount of time we spent together. The fact that I’m only sad when we’re apart. They way you say you love me. Funny we never argued, laying on your chest as we watched a movie. The way you enjoy the food I made you. How your eyes sparkled the day i left for school. I miss it all never thought I would but I do. I guess forever means until your through. I made a promise to love you and I will but I can’t do it from this distance. I wish I had the heart to tell you how I felt but to be rejected I can’t deal with it. I still believe we belong together just hope you realize it sooner then later.
They say there’s someone for everyone they say don’t look for love, love will find you. What I dont understand is these same people didn’t sit in there house all day waiting for the love of their life to knock on the door. They sure got hurt so how can they tell you how to love. How can you possible tell someone whats the right and wrong way to love someone. How can there be rule to such a powerful magic. In my opinion if you can’t sacrifice then you cannot love and if your lucky enough to embrace love you better keep it because that the greenest grass you’ll ever find.
Till this day I don’t trust anyone. It’s a waste of time because everyone leaves. I have yet to have someone stay in my life and I’m tired of everything. Now I just believe I’m the good luck chuck in real life. It’s not fair why do I always get hurt. Thought things would change different people different result but nope I was wrong like always. I shy away from everything because I replace love with fear and I like it this way. How can I get hurt then; they say love will find me and all this promising shit but lifes not even promised so how do they know again
Why do people ignore the truth? Why do we believe reality to be what’s it’s not suppose to be? Why does love always burn and wins the upper hand every time? Why do I even try to love when EVERY SINGLE TIME I fail? Why care?
I learned by watch and picking up others behavior and reaction. never been in a situation to care about whose around me and never cared to love enough people to secure me. After that being I realize I choose to be lonely because I see how people can be :)
“Look, we don’t get five championships by being sympathetic towards each other and kissing each other’s ass during the game. I’m going to demolish him. He understands that. If he switches off on me in the post, there’s going to be problems. I’m sure he’ll put an elbow right in my back, and that’s why we love each other.”—
-Kobe(who else?), talking about playing against, Derek Fisher, new backup PG for the Thunder.